Showing posts with label sUmaSagI. Show all posts
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Saturday, September 15, 2012

An Encounter: 5 loaves and 2 fishes



Perhaps everyone of you are already familiar in this story. Probably you even heard it a thousand times. This gospel account appeared in the four synoptic gospels: Mark, Matthew, Luke and John. This is the only miracle of Jesus that can be seen reflected in those four gospels. But have you ever wonder where these 5 loaves and two fishes came from? When the apostles learned that it was already getting dark, they asked Jesus to dismiss the people and tell them to go to the near village so that they can buy their food for themselves because their money was not enough to feed all of the five thousand men. Right! Five thousand men not including the numbers of women and children. Unfortunately, Jesus instead of dismissing the crowd compelled his apostles to produce food for them.

Now, here came the 5 loaves and two fishes. From whom? From a boy. Amidst the number of the crowds, only from a boy came these humble gifts. It was stated in the Gospel of John that these food came from a little boy who was assisted by Andrew to Jesus. "Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?" (Jn.6:9). A boy presenting his food.

Who was this boy? What was he doing with the crowd? How young he was? Honestly, it was not stated in the four gospels about the information of this boy. Most likely his parents were with him just like the other crowd who wanted to know more about Jesus; wanted to see what kind of man He was; and more certainly, the first encounter of the boy with Jesus; face to face, probably a foot away from each other. But no conversation recorded. Jesus just asked the people to sit down and then took the food.

I happened to hear a song from a Singaporean singer/composer entitled “5 loaves and 2 fishes”. The song showed the story of that boy before he brought his food to Jesus; the story before his encounter with Jesus. Who would have thought what was in the mind of that boy when he freely gave his food? What did he felt when Jesus looked into his eyes while receiving his gifts?

The little boy gave his food not knowing that Jesus will perform a miracle and multiply it. Even Andrew expressed his doubt of how will these little gifts can feed a thousand people. Yet, this boy generously handed his food to Jesus. And the miracle happened. An encounter with Jesus that perhaps lasted only a couple of minutes. No conversation was made but the surrendering act of the boy of what he has greatly manifested. Remember the crowd was all hungry and there was no food to find. The boy can freely hide this food for him and for his family consumption only. But he did what for him was right. Even if he too was not sure what can it do but he knew to himself that he should do it. His little act became the source of one of the greatest miracles in the bible.

This encounter showed that in giving there is really no gift that is too small. We should take away our fears, our reservations that hinder us to give freely. Let us be imitators of this child; of his act. 

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

NoOng siNabi mO...


Noong sinabi mong mahal mo ako
Lahat ay biglang nagbago
Labis-labis ang naging epekto
Ikaw na ang naging aking mundo
Maraming beses kitang tinalikuran
Lumayo baka sakali ika'y makalimutan
Ang mga gawa ko'y minsan 'di ko na maunawaan
Maalis ka lang sa aking isipan
Nasabi ko "Sana'y 'di na lang kita nakilala"
Yung parang walang sa ati'y naitala
Ni alaala mo'y di na alintana
Mamuhay muli at maging malaya
Pero ano ba talagang meron ka?
Pag-ibig ba iyon o may higit pa?
Pakiwari ko'y isang kasalanan ang iwan ka
Paniwalain ang sarili na 'di kita nakilala

Noong sinabi mong mahal mo ako
Batid mo ba ang laman ng puso ko?
Tingin mo ba yun din ang nadarama ko?
O dahil alam mong hindi ako tatanggi sa'yo
Ang pagsuyo mo ay walang kapantay
Bilib ako sa'yo sa oras na sa aki'y inalay
Hindi ka sumuko at matiyagang nag-antay
Nais mo talaga na magsama tayo habangbuhay

Noong sinabi mo na mahal mo ako
Takot ang unang naramdaman ko
At hanggang ngayon ito'y hindi pa naglalaho
Alam ko nauunawaan mo ako
Ngayon alam ko na ramdam mo ang pag-ibig ko
Walang pagdududa at pagkalito
Hindi lang pag-ibig ang alay sa'yo
Kundi buhay at kaluluwa ko

Noong sinabi mong mahal mo ako
Ano pa ang mahihiling ko?
Napakaswerte ko sa'yo
Ano pang hahanapin ko?
Kaya ngayon ako naman ang hayaan mo
Gawin ang dapat na para sa'yo
Iparinig ang sagot sa tinuran mo
Oo! IKAW DIN AY MAHAL KO.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

wHo aM i tO reFusE...

My heart is crying to the Lord for help, for guidance and for wisdom.All I want is to do your Holy Will. Not mine but yours alone.
But how?

Give me the graces I need. It has been nine months since I left from the seminary. And yet, you never abandoned me.
This desire to be your bride never left me.
But still, I’m the one who caused myself far from you; because of my weaknesses; due to my worldliness.

Indeed, my heart will always be restless until it rest only unto you.
You are my refuge, my dwelling place.
Where can I find a place such as yours?
No one my Lord.

You know me since I was in my mother’s womb;
you knit me and mold me;
you know my name and the numbers of my hair.
What else can I hide from you?
You know what is best for me.
You engraved it into my heart.

Where should I turn? Where should I hide?
Everywhere you are there.
What is the use of hiding?

Be my bride you said.
Who am I to refuse such proposal?

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

paNaNampaLataYa + paG-aSa + paG-iBiG

(Halaw kay St. John Marie Vianney)
Kapistahan: Aug. 4

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." -1 Cor. 13:13

Marahil pamilyar na tayo sa mga katagang ito. Madalas natin marinig, makadaupang-palad, magamit at siguro ay ipanalangin. Tama! Ipanalangin. Sapagkat ang mga ito ay mula lamang at bigay lamang ng Diyos.

Faith / Pananampalataya

Ang pananampalataya ay bigay sa atin ng Diyos. Kung ating aalalahanin, nuong tayo'y bininyagan, ang hiningi at dinulog natin sa Simbahan ay pagkalooban tayo ng Pananampalataya. Pananampalataya upang mabanggit ang "Diyos ko at Panginoon ko!" Sumasampalataya tayo na may Diyos, iisang Diyos na makapangyarihan; na may gawa ng langit at lupa. "Mapalad ang mga sumasampalataya kahit hindi nila ako nakita." Ang kawalan ng pananampalataya ang humadlang sa dalawang alagad, habang papuntang Emmaus, na makilala si Kristo. Gayundin ang hindi agad pagkakilala ni Maria Magdalena nuong si Kristo'y muling nabuhay. Ipinunla sa atin ang binhi ng pananampalataya. Linangin natin ito. Hayaan natin itong makita at masilayan ang liwanag mula sa pagkakatanim sa ikabuturan ng ating mga puso.

Hope / Pag-asa

Ah! Pag-asa! Ang buhay. Araw-araw tayo'y bumabangon na pinanghahawakan ang pag-asang hatid ng Diyos. Pag-asa na kailanma'y hindi dapat nating bitiwan. Gumagawa tayo ng mabuti; nagpapakapilit at nagsusumikap maging mabuti at pinapanatili na maging mabuti sapagkat umaasa tayo sa pangakong hatid ng Panginoon sa atin: ang buhay na walang hanggan; ang makapiling siya sa kanyang kaharian na kanyang inihanda para sa atin; para sa bawat isa sa atin. Napakasarap isipin at asamin na maganap at malasap ang mga iyon. Ang kawalan ng pag-asa na mapatawad siya ng Diyos ang kumitil sa buhay ni Hudas. Ito rin ang tumabing sa mga mata ng dalawang alagad, habang papuntang Emmaus, na hindi makilala si Kristo. Dala nila sa kanilang dibdib ang pagpatay sa kanilang pag-asa, sa kanilang Mesias. "Huwag kang matakot."

Love / Pag-ibig

Pag-ibig! Ang pinakadakila. May hihigit pa kaya? Pag-ibig na mula sa Diyos, na katangi-tanging pinagmumulan nito. Pinagmumulan na hindi nagbabago; na hindi pabagu-bago. Nuon, ngayon at magpasawalang hanggan. Pag-ibig ang nagtulak sa Diyos na tayong maligtas at maangkin muli mula sa pagkakahulog sa kasalanan. Pag-ibig na ipinakita sa pagbibigay ng kanyang katangi-tanging anak para sa ating kaligtasan. Pag-ibig kung bakit tayo'y umiibig din. May mahihiling pa ba tayo? Na tayong handang mahalin ng Diyos kahit hindi natin siya mahal. Na tayong mahal niya kahit wala kang gawin para mahalin ka niya. Kung alam lang natin ito. Napakasarap magpakalunod sa pag-ibig ng Diyos. Pag-ibig. Ito ang dahilan kung bakit nakilala ng dalawang alagad, sa daan papuntang Emmaus, si Kristo sa paghahati-hati ng tinapay. Kung bakit umalab ang kanilang mga puso habang kanilang kausap si Kristo. Ito rin ang dahilan kung bakit napasambit si Maria Magdalena ng "Raboni!" pagkatapos mabanggit ni Kristo ang kanyang pangalan. Pag-ibig. "Magmahalan kayo tulad ng pagmamahal ko sa inyo."

Pananampalataya...Pag-asa...Pag-ibig...

Ang tatlong ito ay mananatili ngunit ang pag-ibig ang pinakadakila sa lahat. Tayo'y sumasampalataya sa Diyos; na may Diyos; ngunit kapag dumating na ang kanyang muling pagbalik ito'y tuluyan ng maglalaho. Ano pang sasampalatayanan natin? Ito'y naganap na. Ito'y nasa harap na ng ating mga mata. Ang Diyos; ang Diyos na totoo. At sa pagdating ng araw na ito, na makapiling na natin ang Diyos sa kanyang kaharian at matamasa ang buhay na walang hanggan, ano pang aasamin natin? Wala na sapagkat ito'y nagkaroon na ng kaganapan. Ngunit ang pag-ibig, ito'y mananatili at lalong yayabong sa kaharian ng Panginoon. Hindi ito kailanman maglalaho. Ito ay panghahawakan at tatamasain natin magpasawalang hanggan.

Pananampalataya ay bigay ng Diyos Ama, hatid ni Kristo sa kanyang pagkakatawang-tao ay pag-asa, samantalang dahil sa pag-ibig ng Ama at ng Anak tayo'y inihabilin at sinusubaybayan ng Espiritu Santo hanggang sa dumating ang buhay na walang hanggan.


San Juan Marie Vianney, ipanalangin mo kami.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

haBanG mAy paG-aSa mAy bUhaY...

Batid nating lahat ang kasabihang "Habang may buhay may pag-asa". Ngunit sa aking pagtanto ay mukhang baligtad dapat. Sa aking palagay na "Habang may pag-asa, may buhay".

Bakit ko nasabi?

Sapagkat kung ang bawat isa sa atin, ang bawat tao kapag nawalan ng pag-asa sa buhay ay tiyak hahangaring hindi na mabuhay pa dito sa mundo. Ang masaklap pa ay kung kikitilin nya ang kanyang buhay sa kawalan ng pag-asa. Ang kawalan ng pag-asa ni Hudas na siya ay patatawarin pa ng Panginoon sa kanyang mga nagawa ang nag-udyok sa kanyang kitilin ang kanyang buhay. Gayon din malamang ang maraming pang taong nagpasyang tapusin na ang kanilang buhay.

Ang isang taong puno ng pag-asa sa buhay ay ang taong handang harapin ang lungkot at saya na hatid nito. Handang suungin ang landas ng buhay. Ito ang kanyang ginagamit para bumangon sa bawat bagong umaga.

Ang pag-asa ay bigay ng Diyos sa ating lahat. Sa kanya ito nagmula. Ang pag-asa na makapiling ang Panginoon sa kanyang kaharian balang araw ang ginagamit natin upang mamuhay ng naaayon sa kanyang kagustuhan. Ang pag-asa sa kanyang pangakong buhay na walang hanggan ang nagpapalakas sa atin na gumawa ng mabuti kaninuman. Ang pag-asang ipinakita ni Kristo sa kanyang krus at kamatayan ay nag-uudyok sa atin mamuhay na nababalot sa kanyang pag-ibig.

Habang may pag-asa may buhay. Magsilbi sana tayong instrumento ng pag-asa lalo na sa mga pinanghihinaan na ng loob. Ibahagi natin sa kanila ang pag-asang ating nararamdaman at pinanghahawakan ng sa ganun ay mapagpatuloy nila ang kanilang buhay...upang magkaroon sila ng buhay...na puno ng pag-asa.

Monday, January 24, 2011

to start anew...

.currently i'm here at talavera, nueva ecija. in my mother's bestfriend's house. thinking, enjoying the place, and perhaps planning. i still want to hold on to the reason(s) why i left the seminary and start anew with my life. i don't know if it is a compelled action to do after leaving behind your history. there are many things to consider, many things offered but still i am the one who will decide. am i really the one who will decide? or it still depends on the factors outside me? i cannot blame those outside me with every decision i make. they can easily blame me for the decision i make. i cannot blame others with the consequences i might face. they can easily blame me with the consequences i might have.

Monday, March 1, 2010

"Do this in memory of me." - Lk.22:19


On the road to Emmaus, two men did not easily recognized Jesus until he took bread, blessed it and broke it and gave it to them. And their eyes were opened, and they recognized him (Lk.24:30). Everyday we are given a great opportunity to witness and be part of breaking of the bread in the Eucharist, which was instituted by Jesus before he was arrested. We are blessed to encounter Him and be reminded of His great love for us and the forgiveness of our sins.

Blessed are we who are called to receive Jesus in the Eucharist. Yes! Jesus. In the Eucharist, we are able to receive Him, Body and Blood. A saint would say, "How great it is to know that the only food my soul would take is Jesus. He alone could suffice my soul." St. Paul said, when we come together, it is not the Lord's supper that we are receiving, rather the Lord himself. And for as often as you eat the bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord's death until he comes (1Cor.11:26). Therefore let us make ourselves worthy of receiving Jesus in the Eucharist. Be mindful not to profane the Body and Blood of the Lord by examining ourselves before receiving Him.

If we are asked to picture in mind our best memory with Jesus, tell that it is in the Eucharist, the Last Supper. For in this memory, we can definitely feel His great love and great mercy for us.

For in this memory, He commanded us to love one another, just as he loved us.
For in this memory, He taught us that He is our Way, our Truth and our Life.
For in this memory, we kept His commandments because we loved Him.
For in this memory, He left us with His peace and turned our sorrows into joy.
For in this memory, Jesus defeated the world.

"Do this in memory of me.", said Jesus. "Unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever feeds in my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life and I will raise him up on the last day." (Jn. 6:53-54)

- jEpoY QuiNterO
Holy Cross Parish Bulletin March 2010 Cover Issue

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

On Friendship

" I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my FatherI have made known to you." - Jn. 15: 15

How good it is to know that someone calls you "friend" and sometimes treat you as his best friend. As a relational being, we tend to look for someone who could undestand and made us feel secure and happy. Jesus made known everything of Him to His disciples before considering them His friend. I repeat... EVERYTHING. Jesus' disciples witnessed how He wept from the death of a friend, how Jesus showed His anger at the temple and how Jesus told Peter "Go away from me Satan!". But His disciples remained still to their faith to Jesus. Whenever we experience conflict between our considered friends, it is only a part of discovering their personality. A part of gradual knowing of the totality of our friends. It is not yet the "EVERYTHING" of that person. What is important is the moment we have shared with them, the learning we get and the humility acquired from them. Friendship does not manifest only in being with each other or always updating each other. Like what Jesus’ disciples did when He ascended into Heaven, they continue to fulfill what Jesus want them to do and continue to show what they have learn and experience being a friend of Jesus. Nothing on earth will last forever. And friendship will only last depending on the person’s decision and free will. No one is to blame if that friendship will not end in good terms. It is up to us, after knowing everything from our friends, good or bad, if we will continue to accept them and soon call them our FRIENDS.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Longing for a relationship

They say, "man was created to be relational". From the start God created the world and all that was in it including us, man. God created the birds, land and sea creatures to accompany man but still he found no happiness until God created a woman out of man's ribs. God continued to relate to us even our first parents commited sin and be sent out from paradise.
My God! My soul is glad to feel that you are always there, waiting for me to relate with you, despite of my offenses and failings. I always seek guidance, comfort, love and affection from others not realizing that You are willing to give those things to me. I always look from others what is lacking in me to be filled not thinking that you alone can suffice me.

Monday, July 13, 2009

mY eVerYdaY baTtLe...

+ j.m.j.
July 14, 2009

Oh! My God! My soul is very glad to win every battle and temptations that comes to me. My soul is overflowing with your love and graces. How good it is to see myself in your side laughing at satan's defeat. Everyday will be a battle for evil. But after every battle, it is good to see my soul gloriously celebrating its victory with you my God.

Only for you my soul will be at peace, will be at safe. With every victory with you my soul finds freedom from sin. You alone can set me free. You alone can shield me. Standing tall with you, my God, will definitely defeat every temptation and sin.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

to CO-EXIST...

J.M.J.
Apr. 20, 2009


There was one time a young lady approached me and asked me if she (or they) could co-exist with the other youth in the parish. She wanted me to think about the meaning of what she said…”TO CO-EXIST”.

I would like to share to everyone and to her what l read about “to co-exist”.
The vast majority of the poeple we see in our everyday life, at work, while travelling, in the marketplace, even in our neighborhhod, are people we do not meet except perhaps at a very superficial level. We just happen to “CO-EXIST” with them. By the way, here is a word that should never be used in the field of dialogue. To be in dialogue has nothing to do with co-existence. The aim of dialogue is not to co-exist! The tragedy of life is precisely that most people merely co-exist, even those who ought to have close relationships, such as immediate neighbors, colleagues at work and, especially married couples. One of my muslim friends upon hearing me voice my dislike for the word “co-existence”, proposed the word “pro-existence.” I like it: living for one another in life, not just side by side.

This is a learning that all of us should remember. This is a reality. We should know the very essence of our existence and of others. By acknowledging the presence of others is one way of acknowledging their existence.

maHirAp...pEro...

J.M.J.
Mar. 21, 2009


marami ang nagtatanong kung bakit ako ay nandito pa sa labas ng seminaryo…
marami ang nagtataka kung lumabas ba ako at hindi na muling babalik pa…
ang totoo…mahirap…
mahirap ipaliwanag…
mahirap magpaliwanag…
mahirap ipa-intindi…
at lalong mahirap maintindihan…

pero kailangan ko bang magpaliwanag at ipaliwanag?
pwede kong ipaliwanag at pwede ko rin hindi ipaliwanag. hindi rin naman ako obligadong magpaliwanag sa bawat magtatanong kung anong nangyari. mahirap kasi maintindihan at maunawaan ang mga pinagdadaanan at mga dapat pagdaanan namin kung gusto talaga naming tahakin ang tinahak ni Jesus. kailangan mong mamatay upang kunin ang panibagong buhay para lalo kang maging karapat-dapat na maging kanyang tagasunod.
mahirap pero sana maintindihan nila ang aming nararanasan at pinagdadaanan. mahirap humarap muli sa iba at iharap ang aming sinapit.

pero iisa lang ang nais kung iparating sa inyo…
ako po ay magpapatuloy sa paglalakbay… kung ako man ay tumigil ito ay sa kadahilanang kailangan kong magnilay kung kaya ko pang tahakin ang daan na lubhang puno ng misteryo at pangamba..kaya ko bang lumakad muli at suungin ang hirap ng pagsunod sa kanya…
alam ko na sa muli kong paglakbay…kayong mga nakakabasa nito ay tiyak ng handang magbigay ng lakas na simulan ang aking unang paghakbang…

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

siGe! uLan...

Sige! Bumuhos ka ulan!
Hugasan ang mundong makasalanan
Iiyak ang puso mong sugatan
Hanggang maubos, ng ika'y tumahan.

Sige! Bumuhos ka ulan!
Pati hangin mo'y 'yong iparamdam
Lamig nito'y sa amin manahan
Hipuin manhid naming katawan.

Sige! Bumuhos ka ulan!
Lakas mo'y tiyak iyong ilalaan
Luha mo'y tila hindi mapaparam
May hatid na lungkot at kasawian.

Sige! Bumuhos ka ulan!
Ibuhos mo nang may kalayaan
Lunurin ang buong kapaligiran
Itangay sa agos dungis nami't kasalanan.


Sige! Bumuhos ka ulan!
Sa pagtila mo sana may kahinatnan
May pansin nawa sa iyo'y naglaan
Upang ang iyong ginawa'y 'di masayang.